Sometimes the bigger shifts are so fast and so deep you can’t describe them to anyone else – much less write a blog about them. I have had a week like that. When that happens the day-to-day practical spirituality is the answer for me.
If I am feeling overwhelmed I just ask God for help. If I am feeling anxious I imagine giving it all to God. I pray in the mornings for spiritual help in staying aligned with my higher self and open to the guidance that comes for me that day. I usually also ask for help with whatever problem my mind has conjured up for me –real or not (could be for direction in my business, could be what to do about increasing my income, could be anything). Throughout the day as the worries crop up again, I pray again. I release the worries over and over and I re-focus on conscious connection with God and what is expansive in my life. If I get angry at or hurt by someone else, I pray for him or her, then I pray for help in changing my energy so I don’t have to be triggered by that person or anything he/she says again (sometimes I pray for the courage to walk away from that person if that is what my intuitive guidance suggests).
We have an interesting image of lightworkers and healers in that we expect their lives to be wonderful or, at the very least, that they handle all adversity with grace, serenity and acceptance. There are now some law of attraction advocates out there saying or writing that they are positive all the time (or are trying to indicate that with their words).
God bless them all.
I am not like that – in case you hadn’t noticed from reading any thing I write. I am an effective healing facilitator and teacher and I have my ups and downs like every one else. I share all my emotions although in my every day life they are not at all that dramatic anymore, mostly. I do my best to approach each and every circumstance from an open, sacred place of being but sometimes when the fear is so great I slip. Since I am committed to the deepest, most thorough integration of my light body/soul/higher self as is possible, fear comes up for healing a lot. I let myself dwell in it to the point of forgetting (even momentarily) that all is well and whatever is being created by the fear, or by the fear coming to the surface for healing, will be all right too.
It is not always comfortable or pleasing where my intuition guides me. Sometimes I ignore it for years because I just don’t want to do what my higher self tells me. However, as we all know, if you ignore it too long things get worse and worse until you have to pay attention.
I spent last year looking for a job. I knew I needed more income but I didn’t want to start another business that I was going to have to work my butt off with and have it go nowhere. See the inherent assumptions there? I finally got a job and within a week my intuition tried to push me out because it was not the right thing for me – it wasn’t a good match for me energetically or with my purpose here on earth.
God spoke to me through a few other people with a suggestion for a second business for me, over the past year and a half. As I wrote earlier, I didn’t want to do it. Then a few weeks ago it came to me AGAIN through someone who barely knew me. This time I finally listened. I woke up two mornings later with the business name and put an ad on Craigs list. I got clients right away – before I even had time to think of what I would charge or what my time or physical boundaries would be. Now I am swamped and struggling with balancing my schedule. It happened easily and I have been blessed with some clients who are enthusiastic about my skills, and who pay promptly and with integrity. It was the right thing at the right time, manifested without any resistance.
I notice I am having a hard time catching up to some of the changes that have already happened to me.
I have used all sorts of behaviors to make me feel better – eating, shopping, raging, trying to merge with a man, complaining to friends etc. I would get an energy/emotional rush from it and at least suppress whatever emotion I didn’t want to feel anymore.
I was led to a job at a bead store last September. It was so synchronistic there was no mistaking it. And, at first, I loved it. It was perfect for me. I talked to people all day, I dressed casually, I learned a lot more about a craft I love, I taught it to others, and it got me out of the house while I was waiting for all the shifting to settle down until I knew what was next for me. I also came to know that I was and still am helping a lot of people evolve spiritually – both directly with words and more diffusely with energy.
But things began to change and by December it was not as pleasant as it was at first. Partially because I am so impatient and partially because a new assistant manager was appointed who was not as easy to work with as the manager. By the time the manager went out on pregnancy leave, I was really not liking it. However, no matter how often I looked for another job I could not find one. Even when I was having a little inner temper tantrum about it, I still knew I needed to stay there (well maybe for a day or two I thought I could leave).
So when I am going through a ‘healing’ opportunity I am often desperate for ways to feel better. In February an old, deep issue came up again for possible healing. I don’t know about you but not only do I go through all the feelings that were suppressed around my issue but I also go through anger and upset that I am going through it again!!! Not very productive but one of those things I have not healed yet.
When I am in the middle of the shift I need help in feeling better so I don’t wallow in fear and anger and sabotage my own spiritual/energetic/emotional growth. I have four websites I go to often to read beautiful uplifting messages and to remind myself who I truly am – What’s Up on Planet Earth with Karen Bishop, Messages from Matthew at Matthewbooks.com, Crimson Circle, and Celia Fenn’s website (Starchild Global – I read her logs).
I was so sure it was intuitively right to leave my job. I planned three trips in April and May. I was happy at the thought of not working there anymore.
But my irritation at being there had more to do with my reactions to others’ words and energy than my own inner needs. As I lay in bed for 2 weeks with my second bout of the flu I had time to come back to myself. I had the space to feel my own inner heart and processes. I remembered that it doesn’t matter what others are saying, thinking, feeling or acting out. My commitment is to my own spiritual growth and to walk being the compassion and love I know I am.
I have been committed to a pretty intense spiritual path for a long time now. Yet I still struggle with my faith.
It isn’t that I don’t have faith in God or my higher self. It is that I worry that I will get in my own way, time after time. I am not as naive and optimistic as I once was. I know how bad it can get now. And the intuitive info is coming calmer – not a big push where it was easier to follow even if I was very afraid at the same time. It is smaller. It is a small knowing or a small breathe of fresh air.
Hi there, I might actually be coming into the present times with technology by finally starting a blog. However, I cannot figure out the editing so this will be rough for a while until I do.
I was going to do a newsletter but decided that was too stuffy. I like things fluid and it gives you, the reader a chance to respond to me.
Things are interesting right now aren’t they? Lots of movement, some of which is not so comfortable. Those of us who are wayshowers are tired and out of sync with others who are just beginning their spiritual ascension. The thing to remember right now is to be true to yourself.